One night, out of boredom, I decided to change my relationship status in Facebook. I just thought that Facebook doesn't really entertain me anymore. For me, it's just a tool to get in touch with my REAL loved ones. Since no one cares about my posts, I thought, what if I changed my relationship status? How big can the impact be? How curious can people get? And I did not fail. After changing it, immediately, a high school friend had already posted her comment. Then there comes next until it got 25 likes and 15 congratulatory comments from most (not all, okay) people who don't even bother how I am or where the heck I may be. I had talked about this to a colleague (as he believed that I am really in a relationship and I feel that he is jealous coz he's still single. haha!), and I told him that I didn't imagine that people will respond to it like that. And he said that obviously, I put in on Facebook so that people will know. Well, he's actually right. But it still makes me think that some people are just plain shallow coz some of these people doesn't even care about me, but in just one change of relationship status, I felt that they were all trying to enter my life. After seeing this and proving that your status in Facebook "matters", I suddenly wondered what could be Mark Zuckerberg's real intentions. Did he intend for these people to be hooked-up/addicted like this just for the sake of being updated or it's just a clean intention on making a tool to connect people and at the same time, make money out of it? Well, whichever may be true, that still makes him guilty by association.
Though even I do not know what made me do my "experiment", there's one lesson I learned: Facebook stressed the crap out of me, yet, until I'm away from my family and friends, it's the best tool to keep in touch with them. And the best solution is: stick with my real purpose of using it.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
The So-called Quarter Life Crisis
It's been 8 months and I feel that I'm still trapped here wasting my time. Well, not totally. I still get to go around the city and the beach (which I really, really love!) but it seems that I'm going nowhere if I stay here longer.
On my way home tonight, I told my supervisor that I don't have any plans in my life (I'm giving her a hint that I'm leaving very soon but most probably she didn't get it). She told me it's fine since I'm still "quite" young but I should think about my plans more seriously when I turn 25. So that means I only have a few months left to fool around? I had told myself that I will do whatever makes me happy. I spent most of my younger years planning on what I wanted to be and I always end up not really liking it. I cherished the experiences and lessons I learned but what can I do if I found out that I am not really happy living such kind of life? I would say that I had achieved MOST of what I dreamt of. But 4 years had passed, here I am, still unsure what I wanted in my life. So I guess, the best solution I could think of is to stop planning. Anyway, I could never predict the future. As the song says "Que sera sera, whatever will be will be, the future's not ours to see".
Lucky are those who easily find what they wanted. But it just doesn't work that way to everyone. My goal is to continue my life, stay happy and I guess I will just have to find it along the way.
On my way home tonight, I told my supervisor that I don't have any plans in my life (I'm giving her a hint that I'm leaving very soon but most probably she didn't get it). She told me it's fine since I'm still "quite" young but I should think about my plans more seriously when I turn 25. So that means I only have a few months left to fool around? I had told myself that I will do whatever makes me happy. I spent most of my younger years planning on what I wanted to be and I always end up not really liking it. I cherished the experiences and lessons I learned but what can I do if I found out that I am not really happy living such kind of life? I would say that I had achieved MOST of what I dreamt of. But 4 years had passed, here I am, still unsure what I wanted in my life. So I guess, the best solution I could think of is to stop planning. Anyway, I could never predict the future. As the song says "Que sera sera, whatever will be will be, the future's not ours to see".
Lucky are those who easily find what they wanted. But it just doesn't work that way to everyone. My goal is to continue my life, stay happy and I guess I will just have to find it along the way.
"My goal is not to wake up at age 40 with the bitter realization that I have wasted my life on a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens" - Daria
Monday, March 5, 2012
instant noodle
I've realized two things today: money can't buy a family's love and fate's a traitor. It's 2:30 am and I guess my friend had already found out that his dad had already left our world. I feel guilty not telling him but a part of me was hoping he'll be okay until he gets back home. i cried and i do not care. I used to be passive on feelings like this but i guess my own experiences changed me. i am more sensitive (and emotional).
destiny, fate... no one can tell. i say it's a traitor. you can never guess, you can never plan. when you try so hard to get what you want and you think you can have it, you will never if it is really not for you to get. it sometimes feel like a waste of time trying when at the end, you'll get nothing. it's a traitor because sometimes it will give you a life you do not even want. when you strive for something and you're almost successful in achieving your dream then suddenly your world turns upside down. no warnings. no questions asked. in a minute, in a second, our lives can change. either causes happiness or shock.
but then, after writing all these realizations, i just remembered why i keep on going. it's not really the goal. it's HOW you get there. it's HOW you surpassed the challenges.
destiny, fate... no one can tell. i say it's a traitor. you can never guess, you can never plan. when you try so hard to get what you want and you think you can have it, you will never if it is really not for you to get. it sometimes feel like a waste of time trying when at the end, you'll get nothing. it's a traitor because sometimes it will give you a life you do not even want. when you strive for something and you're almost successful in achieving your dream then suddenly your world turns upside down. no warnings. no questions asked. in a minute, in a second, our lives can change. either causes happiness or shock.
but then, after writing all these realizations, i just remembered why i keep on going. it's not really the goal. it's HOW you get there. it's HOW you surpassed the challenges.
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