I've realized two things today: money can't buy a family's love and fate's a traitor. It's 2:30 am and I guess my friend had already found out that his dad had already left our world. I feel guilty not telling him but a part of me was hoping he'll be okay until he gets back home. i cried and i do not care. I used to be passive on feelings like this but i guess my own experiences changed me. i am more sensitive (and emotional).
destiny, fate... no one can tell. i say it's a traitor. you can never guess, you can never plan. when you try so hard to get what you want and you think you can have it, you will never if it is really not for you to get. it sometimes feel like a waste of time trying when at the end, you'll get nothing. it's a traitor because sometimes it will give you a life you do not even want. when you strive for something and you're almost successful in achieving your dream then suddenly your world turns upside down. no warnings. no questions asked. in a minute, in a second, our lives can change. either causes happiness or shock.
but then, after writing all these realizations, i just remembered why i keep on going. it's not really the goal. it's HOW you get there. it's HOW you surpassed the challenges.
